Driving the van to visit a medical doctor in a nearby town, I parked in one of the spots facing away from the building; the front of the van sloped downward. Upon entering the office building I began to get nervous, especially when remembering I didn’t have any health insurance or money to pay for the visit. I panicked and worked my way through the crowds of people to get to the door. I’m nearly six feet tall but there were many men who blocked my path that were taller than me. My heart began to race; my breathing laborious. “How can I get out of here?” I screamed in my head.
Finally outside I make my way to the van. It’s parked in the same spot; now however, the slant has increased, there is no cement bar to keep it from rolling away, and there is a drop-off where people are walking underneath!” How will I ever be able to back out this tough spot?”
I found a stairway leading down to the lower level. There were crowds of people there just as there had been in the office building. I tried to gain the attention of a few men to help me back the van up safely. No one would listen to me. What was I to do?
I went back to where the van was parked. I assessed the situation. If I put the van in reverse, it could roll slightly forward first, just enough to go over the edge, killing all those people beneath! Perhaps I could gun the gas pedal a bit while shifting into reverse; that might make me spin, however, as the van was now on the grass. How did that happen?
Unsure of how or what occurred next, I woke up. My heart was still racing; breathing was only a bit labored.
How closely the nightmare seems to be related to my life at the moment; not knowing how to get out of this hole, this predicament I drove myself to. Maybe that’s why I woke up; to reach a conclusion, a solution on how not to spin my wheels backwards or arriving at this situation in the first place.
I’ve put my commitments on hold – almost wrote the “lesser commitments” but is there such an animal? A commitment is standing by your word no matter what, right? I’ve had to switch my priorities around a bit. It’s difficult to choose what’s important to you and what you should be doing; although, if I use my own logic, there would never be any “shoulds” in life.
It’s going on 11am and feel that I’m not accomplishing what I ought to be; is it enough, however, to know that I already got a lot done this morning, just perhaps not everything I hoped to?
Boy. How often and much we beat ourselves up for what is done, what is not done, and what we think ought to be done.
How about you? What do you do when you think the items on your to-do list aren’t being accomplished? Do you take steps or go through a process to rid the stressed feeling? I’d like to hear about it.
In the meantime, I’m going to write down all that I accomplished so far today and be proud of that list.
1. Got on treadmill for 8 minutes.
2. Got groceries.
3. Put said groceries away.
4. Ate breakfast.
5. Wrote a blog post.
What have you accomplished so far today? Are you proud of the list? Care to share?
“The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today.”
~ Franklin D. Roosevelt
Peggy Lee Hanson, personal transition guide and mentor, is expert at compassionately helping those suffering loss of any proportion, especially through unemployment. Using proven strategies and support, she teaches how to move quickly and easily through current or impending life-changing moments so that you can have the life you are meant -- and deserve -- to live.
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