However, now I cannot fall back asleep—these words were fighting to escape at 4am. I know enough by now that I must heed their call.
I wait for the netbook to boot up, but the words would not. Grabbing my journal, the words are imprinted on paper, for the time being, through my pen.
Ah; the electronic document is now ready to have these hand-written words transferred. And so I shall.
And so I did.
I have degenerative disks in my neck and back. Six years ago I had back surgery to alleviate a collapsed disk in my lower left back, but not before nerve damage occurred. The pain was nearly intolerable, yet the doctors tried all they could before putting me on the table and under the knife. As it turned out the disk was sitting on a conjoined nerve (two nerves grown together) and was the cause of the pain and the damage.
For a long time, I capitalized on this pain; meaning I used what I went through as an excuse why I couldn’t run, couldn’t do stairs, couldn’t exercise, couldn’t, couldn’t, couldn’t.
Ever the Miss Positive, the realization finally set it that if I were to keep up the charade (or was it a façade?) I wouldn’t get better—physically and mentally.
I began a regime of good thoughts and no talking of my ills. (This simple strategy has gotten me through many bad times!) With physical therapy and stretching exercises, I’ve learned how to keep my body limber to avoid further instances of shooting leg pain.
But alas, when my body has been feeling good, the exercises go by the wayside. And then I succumb to the pain as described in the beginning of this post.
It’s an awareness I seem to repeat!
Stretch those muscles.
It is as though this formula could work on life in general as well.
What are your thoughts on this? I’d love to hear them.
To your success,
“Life is like an onion: you peel it off one layer at a time, and sometimes you weep.” ~Carl Sandburg
Peggy Lee Hanson, personal transition guide and mentor, is expert at compassionately helping those suffering loss of any proportion, especially through unemployment. Using proven strategies and support, she teaches how to move quickly and easily through current or impending life-changing moments so that you can have the life you are meant -- and deserve -- to live.
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