The Unknown Factor (excerpt)
……is in my heart
………..doubt and a bit of skepticism
……………reside in my head
………..A great poet once said
……that if you took one step forward
the gods would take ten toward you
……………………………………………..so why should I be afraid?
Written on my blog March 21, 2009:
“Two weeks. It’s been two weeks since my daughter, Katie, flew in from Allentown, Penn. It’s been two weeks since I stepped foot for the last time into the place I worked. It’s been two weeks since celebrating the years of accomplishment for my boss and manager, not to mention her also being my friend.
It’s been two weeks since I’ve seen many of my friends, of who most were my coworkers as well. Also, it’s been two weeks of thinking, crying, wondering what my future holds and wondering if the path I took will end up being the right one. Every other day it seems—at least it is that often now—I truly believe the path is the right road.
Talking with one of my coaches, she brought something to light: If I’m out to prove myself to anyone—including myself—that puts more pressure on me to succeed, and pressure can be a catalyst to defeat through procrastination. Isn’t it strange that the first three letters of procrastination is ‘pro?’”
This is from one of my daily readings:
“People around you may be acting strangely as they attempt to be true to themselves. Your closest friends might even let you down now because they have to go out on their own, leaving you in the lurch. But you don’t like being left alone today and could take risky action to show others that they shouldn’t go. This isn’t wise behavior; it’s smarter to put your efforts toward becoming more self-sufficient.
I am literally stunned at times just how accurate these online horoscope readings can be. I have had these thoughts for quite some time, but never voiced or wrote. Why? They held the truth I did not and do not want to face.
Sometime toward the end of March, I had been asked where I was in my feelings of losing my job—Sad? Upset? Grieving? Oddly enough, my response had been, “I’m way on the other side of grieving.” Oh sure, there is a day—has been a day—now and then where my emotions get the better of me; however, I realized the time has come for sitting no more, I must get on with my future.
The other day I was thinking about my current circumstances--beginning my dream retirement three years earlier than planned. "Than planned." Ha! I thought in three years who knew what I would be doing. My plan had been a dream, indeed.
Three years ago my working-world took an unexpected turn forcing me to think about my future, something that I never really did before. In my past, I just let the dice roll, showing numbers lucky or "un," letting the chips fall where they may.
Today, I wake to the realization that my dream retirement has come true; I got what I wanted! I got what I wanted!
"OK," you say. "What was your dream?"
My dream was made up of several criterion: To not have to drive 80 miles a day into a major city when I'm 55 years old; to sit at my kitchen table, drinking coffee, reading the daily paper, watching the sunrise, the dog at my feet; and then, retiring to the den to begin my workday--at home.
With the dice rolled, the chips felled, the cards dealt. I now have the opportunity to play my hand and live my dreams.
What are the unknown factors in your life?
The most amazing thing to me was how each of the criteria came to fruition for me. I did not say—or know—how the outcomes would happen; I simply put them out into the Universe and allowed God, Source, everyone who is in the Heavens, to work their magic. Who knew?
Once realizing this dream had come true, I knew I needed a new one. A report will be forthcoming, but I can tell you now, the new dream is in motion and taking shape.
What dream would you like to come true? Write a list quickly and without editing of what that would like. Be open to what transpires, do not control the how; let it unfold naturally.
I’d be very interested in hearing what your dream is or hearing if this has happened to you in the past.
“Words, once they are printed, have a life of their own.” ~Carol Burnett
Peggy Lee Hanson, personal transition guide and mentor, is expert at compassionately helping those suffering loss of any proportion, especially through unemployment. Using proven strategies and support, she teaches how to move quickly and easily through current or impending life-changing moments so that you can have the life you are meant -- and deserve -- to live.
PeggyLee is a Speaker, Best-selling author on Amazon.com, Certified Dream Coach® & Group Leader®, Trained True Purpose Coach®, and CEO and Founder of MyDreamArchitect.com, a subsidiary of Personal Transition Guidance, LLC. Also, Peggy Lee has co-facilitated mastermind groups and appeared as a regular columnist for online communities. She is a member of Toastmasters International.
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