I felt guilty. The more I felt that, the more overwhelm set in.
I wanted to write, but nothing would come. I turned on the TV and watched a terrible movie, yet sticking with it until the end. Light bulb moment: Just because you like many of the players doesn't mean the content is good.
Finally giving in to the overwhelm, it occurred that a little self-love was in order that included a self-talk, too.
You see I took first place in the Humorous Speech Contest at our local Toastmasters club. I knew my speech went well, but I had many doubts before giving it; and I still had doubts well into the evening after the contest was over.
The self-talk resulted in the reminder to celebrate all accomplishments, no matter the size or how I feel about them; I had not done that. So I shouted, "I won!" The shift began. I wrote "over-achiever" in my notebook, naming the day's malady; the shift continued.
What I did next was the most important step of all. I forgave myself for how I was feeling, what I set out to do and didn't, and for the unfair thoughts.
On my Facebook Fan Page of My Dream Architect I wrote, "Which would you rather have? 1) a coach who is tough, honest, and sincere; or 2) a coach who always agreed with you? My last newsletter was a bit on the tough side."
Another choice could be added to the mix: A coach who won't let you get away with anything they won't let themselves get away with.
Who you would like to have as a mentor?
Have a wonderful day and remember to Dream On!
"We don't write to be understood; we write to understand." ~attributed to C.S. Lewis, Cecil Day, John Dufresne